Thank You HD Supply

IMG_1253There is major Reduction in Force (aka RIF) going on within the company in Orlando. I was the first casualty. Unfortunately, that kind of thing is unexpected and is so overwhelming that things happen that are beyond immediate comprehension. One of which was the signing of the release paperwork. Apparently in my stupor, I signed away any rights to to say, publicize or think anything negative about said company. So thus far I have been silent. However after 2 weeks and lots of martinis, I can now say “Thank You” for releasing me.

IMG_1289Thank you for giving me my personality back. Over the last 3 years I had become so very negative. It was never obvious to me until I spent time with Steven living in the hospital at Shands. While he was literally flirting with death trying to fight the c. Diff. infection, I realized that I was more level and in control with him there than I ever felt in my “regular life.” After 2 short weeks, I now feel like me again after being canned, so thank you for giving me back to me.

Thank you for giving me the time to spend 24/7 with Steven now that his recovery is IMG_1270coming along.  I’m so grateful to have the time to be with him while he regains his strength and stamina. I know that being cut off from our health insurance during this critical recovery time probably seems inhumane but it is a great opportunity for me to work on my bookkeeping skills in order to juggle funds to afford the mammoth COBRA payments. After reflecting on that, I say “Thank You.” I’ll be a better person for this.

Thank you for the rocky road of management changes within the division that have helped me to be more flexible. After a dozen fearful times of suggested termination by the client to whom I was assigned, I thank you for the nerves of steel I have developed.  I have learned more here than I would as a contestant on Naked and Afraid!  Living among snakes and vermin is the crux of Naked and Afraid.  Thank you for allowing me to keep my skivvies!

YOU WANT FRIES WITH THAT?

YOU WANT FRIES WITH THAT?

Thank you for the schooling on the reality of the FLMA regulations. I mistakenly thought that I could not be laid off during this protected time. I was foolish to think I was safe during Steven’s illness and really thought that if the quarterly panic of losing my job happened on schedule, I would merely be transferred to another position. Thank you for not placing me into another opportunity. I could be working in a warehouse but Thank You for not considering that, or any other position as an option for me.

Thank you for having the goofy little manager give me the news. I would have been so much more upset if someone with stature within the design center department did the deed. Lucky for me, the messenger never made eye contact with me while haltingly explaining that this “Reduction in Force” was “just business” and had nothing to do with my performance. It made me feel so much better to know you think of me as an outstanding employee and are just letting me go because so much business has been lost by the division. Thank you for that buoy. Great to hang on to something like that! You can’t imagine how that made me feel.

And thank you for sending the giggly branch manager to give me the news. It was a great exercise in my detective skills in figuring out what to do once the shock had worn off. If he had given me the 14 page departure packet, I never would have haIMG_1231d the opportunity to work on my research skills. Thank you for getting me off my butt to refresh my googling abilities!

And most of all, thank you for doing this to me for the second time. I can be a slow learner but I do learn best by repetition so thank you for that. Manager boy suggested I check your website for future job openings. My daughter has threatened to kill me if I do. Thank you for opening that door of communication within my family.

My only insight to all of this is that RIF may make companies feel better. Calling this situation “Laid Off” almost sounds like a colloquialism for “getting screwed.” But the truth of the matter is, tomorrow when I get up and DON’T go to work, in the words of Donald Trump, “You’re fired.”
On a totally unrelated subject, I have a query to my IT friends. When you post with an iPhone, how come auto correct changes “Fuck You” to “Thank You?”

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Too Many Thoughts for My Tired Old Brain

IMG_1236Have you missed me?  I’ve been wanting to add a new post for a while, but I just couldn’t get my brain to settle down enough to focus on a any particular idea and organize it.  So today might just very well end up as a smorgasbord of semi-connecting concepts.  But I’m going to share anyway, because I think this is a direct result of the past year (yes…surprisingly it’s been that long!) and I’m trying my best to keep it real!

  1. Steven is doing great.  That’s the most important topic of every day.  His last visit with Dr. Sprawls had the doctor in awe of the progress and the full experience of what’s gone on.  He can’t believe that Steven was taken right to the very edge of death only to come back as the new-new and improved Steven 3.0 (For a little more history, read A Thank You to Cancer For Steven 2.0 from February 2011)  Steven knew the doctor
    SISTER MARY STEVEN...LOL!  HIS HEAD IS ALWAYS COLD!

    SISTER MARY STEVEN…LOL! HIS HEAD IS ALWAYS COLD!

    was more amazed than we are because he kept repeating, “You know they gave you LETHAL doses of chemo, right?”  The answer to that, by the way. is YES!!!!  We know…even though we tried not to think about it at the time, the days after the transplant, Day +7 through Day +20 to be exact, were fucked up!!!!  For poor Steven, I’m pretty sure his main thoughts during that span were that he knew he COULD die, was pretty sure he WOULDN”T die but absolutely felt like he HAD died and gone to HELL!  And now we’re through it and it’s changed life for both of us in the most extreme way…and I can’t even put it in to words yet.  The only thing I’ve got right now is “Fucking Unbelievable” and I don’t think that’s really an article for Yahoo Health!

  2. Facebook has this new annoying addition of grabbing a throw back photo from IMG_0577a past post and popping it into your news feed just to screw with your brain.  I’ve been in a tailspin since July 27 when I had a photo thrown in my face of Maritza and Zoey in the backseat of the car with the caption, “Maritza and Zoey want a dog…going to try on a few!”  It made me so sad that we picked out a new puppy, waited anxiously for her to be old enough to come home to us, got her home just to find out that Steven’s chemo hadn’t worked.  After a lot of sickness and hospital stays mixed in with puppy training and being outnumbered by high energy canines, we ultimately had to find new homes for all three girls in 1 year.  And then added the transplant process on top of that.  Seriously, God…WTF?  YouPREGNANT PEDICURES might me giving me too much credit for strength!
  3. The news that Alexis was growing us a grand baby was the turning point in grabbing on to a life line.  We found out right before the transplant and it was the ray of light that we turned on when things were the bleakest.  Sadly, I went way overboard on my prediction that I was getting a granddaughter.  Thank you God for making me leave the bag I brought from home in the car.  It held a few items of hand-made heirloom girl clothes that were made by me and my mom when Alexis was a sprout.  I can’t decide how crazy it is that I would hang on to that stuff or how embarrassing that it would have been to present a pile of couture cross-dressing styles to her in front of her friends.  Either way, I just wish I could have gotten my face to keep smiling without my eye twitching and FEED MEmy mouth tensing up in a grin resembling The Joker!  Unfortunately, I’ve gotten the rep of being a big mouth who can’t keep a secret, so I found out the news with the rest of the general public and just wasn’t prepared to be wrong. A little pre-party notice would have been nice!  Surprisingly, you’d think by now that Alexis would know that I always feel like I should get preferential treatment.  But she’ll understand in 4 short months when she tries to push a Perdue Oven Stuffer Roaster out her lady parts.  Next time she’ll know why I feel that I ain’t just the one of the masses!  And, boys are good too and I’m still excited to have a baby in the family.  And I’m not asking again what they are going to name him.  I needed a quick fix to get used to the boy thing, so I decided that I’m calling him Chachi!
  4. I’ve been limping around longer that I can remember walking right.  I’m pretty SWOLLEN KNEEsure I haven’t worn heels in over a year.  This is the first time in my life where I’ve got a closet full of flat shoes, and I really don’t like it.  Seriously, when we first went up to Gainesville for Steven’s evaluation, I actually needed to use his walker to get get around the huge facility.  In between evaluation and collection, I went to a orthopedist who took x-rays and determined a bunch of minor problems.  An MRI was really in order, but I just didn’t have the time with Steven’s full treatment schedule, so I got a shot of cortisone and limped away.  It helped, but not enough to get me on my own feet without walking like Granpappy Amos.  I hated the fact that Steven could move faster than me, so in between collection and transplant, I stopped in for a second shot of cortisone while we were home.  I was told that and MRI was mandatory if the pain continued and it did.  So I did.  When we finally returned for good I squeezed in an MRI before returning to work.  It seems I’ve been hobbling around with a torn meniscus, a huge Bakers cyst on the back of my knee and a bulb shaped swelling of bursitis on the front of my knee.  gallagher_audienceWhen I shave my legs it’s like a trip through the Rockies!  So I’ve got a date set for August 14 for arthroscopic surgery that’s supposed to be a snap.  I don’t see how that can be.  I think the doc is going to drill the first hole in my knee and get hit in the face with a geyser of fluid tantamount to Old Faithful before he even reaches my meniscus.  I’m no doctor but if I can see the fluid from the outside, I can’t figure out how he’s going to get around it without it being like a first row seat to see Gallagher!  Either way, I’ve already got a prescription for pain pills for afterwords and I’m going to insist on a little sumpin-sumpin to calm my nerves upon arrival.  Not for nuthin’ but my pits are sweating already.
  5. And finally, it’s the usual quarterly scare of “I could get laid off at any minute” going on at work.  I’ve never had a job that was so tumultuous and I was a stand up comic for 8 years!  I just work for a builder who loves to chain yank and my bosses either don’t pay attention enough, don’t worry that they still haven’t found anything definite to fill the gap if we do lose the account or, and this is my opinion, don’t give a rat’s ass about me.  After all, I got laid off once 3 years ago kinda in the same way.  And since I believe the rule of thumb is, and I paraphrase, “Screw me once, shame on you…screw me twice, shame on me!”
    YOU WANT FRIES WITH THAT?

    YOU WANT FRIES WITH THAT?

    So that’s another thought for my tired old brain.

For the most part I don’t let it bother me too much.  However, this weekend was the blue moon, so I did spend a good part of Saturday howling at whatever, retaining water and bloating like water balloon and feeling a little sorry for myself.  But today is Sunday, I’m trying to shake off the bad vibes and focus on all the great stuff going on.  So here’s the short list:

  1. Steven isn’t dead and is cancer free.
  2. I don’t have to pick up poop in the back yard.
  3. Granny loves Chachi
  4. Free knee surgery since our out of pocket maximum has been met
  5. FMLA says I can’t get fired, so I wonder what will happen next??? STAY TUNED!  SAME BAT TIME…SAME BAT CHANNEL!

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